Hypothetical: chapter 1

hypothetical: chapter 1

hi, kaifkm!! this is a new story im writing, its not your typical love story, bs mara inshallah bt3jbkm!

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youm sm3t mama muna td5l, 5bait dftr elsh3r t7t shrshfy sree3 8bl ma tshoof

d5lt.

mama muna: nono 7beebty yellah goomy btt25reen 3la elmdrsa,  a5ook w your cousins are in the car ystnook

ma kan ly 5l8 a8oom abd, elyoum youm kan fy baly mn bdayt ha4a elsh’hr, and I try hard to forget it bs I cant. today is 5/5/2025. its the day of my mother and rania’s death allah yr7mhm.

flashback:

14 years old:

noura: sorry wallah, ma a8dr ajy mama m3aha elswa8 w rania w mafy a7ad yw9lny, next week inshallah bjeek

lamya: yooh, 5la9 ajl, next week ya welk ts7been!

noura: ee ee inshalla, yellah bye

8flt w insd7t 3la sreery

mama muna fj2a d5lt 3lay w hy t9ee7

“mama muna aish fy?”

mama: 7beebty tdreen inna elmot byd rbk, w ana mt2kda ink bt8dreen tst7mlkeen el5br, w inty kbrty fa ma b5by 3nk shay, bs umk w rania 36ook a3marhm, w twfo b7adth syara tw.

jlst jmby blsreer

mama: lw inty tbeen, t8dreen tjeen m3ana elmstshfa.

“ee ee a-aby ajy”

t4krt rana, she lost her twin and her best friend,

8rrt inna I block all my emotions, and hold my tears from falling, w tears threatning to fall from my eyes, rk’9t 3nd ‘3rft rana.

I built in me a wall that made me stronger and blocks everytrhing from my heart.

end of flashback

2 years later w lsa ha4a el wall elly bnaita mwjood, 3shan rana.

sr7t 3la mama muna w ma sm3t elly 8alta

mama muna: noura! waink sr7ty yellah 8oomy a5ook w your cousins blsyara btt25reen

“mama tkfeen 3ady a’3eeb? a7sny mree’9a”

mama muna came in and sat on my bed

mama: tdreen inna 7ta rana “mree’9a”

poor rana, losing a twin is like losing a prt of you

“mama wallah innu t3bana, 3ady a’3eeb elyoum”

mama: 3la kaifk, bs la ttrkoon b3’9, roo7y ijlsy m3aha.

“ok a7bk”

bst rasha w 6l3t

I got up and brushed my teeth and got dressed.

mama muna ra7t w 8alt la jenn t8oul la my cousins w faisal inna ma a8dr

faisal’s point of view:

*faisal is 15 years old*

I was sitting in the car waiting for noura

St’3frallah daym tt25r 3laina w mo w8tha abd 

Jt jenn el mrbya

Me: jenn where is Rana and noura?

Jenn: dey will not go f9f9, mama moona gool dey are tired and you go widout dem.

Me: oh 6yb

I unlocked my phone to call noura

I noticed the date and remembered

My face went straight

Turki (my cousin); shfeeha noura?

Me: ift7 jwalk

I texted him so 7modi and the rest of the cousins don’t know

Me by text to Turki;

Me; elyoum youm wafat mama w rania 3shan k4a Rana w noura ma byjoon

Turki: ohhh Allah yr7mhm ya rb, knt b8oolk 5lk m3ahm bs awl youm ma ytfwt, 93ba mara btroo7 3laik elktb

Turki is 18, and he’s the closest cousin blnsba ly and my siblings

(You’ll get introduced to the rest of the cousins later on)

Back to noura’s point of view

I got dressed and got out of the room

I passed by zaid, he’s turki’s brother and secretly my favorite cousin, bs no one knows that, not even him. He just gets me and knows what I want even when I don’t say anything

He looked at me and gave me the biggest hug

I hugged back and just cried all my tears out

kl eldmo3 elly knt 7absaha for about 2 years.

 he was hugging me for about 5 minutes

I was just sobbing but holding it in so no one hears me

He is 17 , he goes to the same school as me bs he was sick for the past 2 days so he skipped school today.

(btw ana aroo7 mdrsa mix)

He let go of my hug and looked at me in the eyes

Zaid: are you ok?

Me: broo7 ashoof Rana

Zaid: ajy m3ak?

Me: la la 3ady Shukran

Zaid: once your done T3aly eldywanya

Me: ok

I went to the room

I knocked

I know awl ma ashoof wjhha B9ee7

Bs I feel like dmoo3y 5l9t mn kthr elbka elly bkaita 3nd zaid

I got in and I found the bed mlyan tissues

Me: hi z8a

Rams laughed in between sobs ; hi bthra

Me: are you okay

Rana: I think I am

Me: 3ady hug?

Rana: sure

a36aitha hug

it was 7, school starts 8.30

jlsna for about for an hour maybe just comforting eachother, nzlna 3nd zaid w jlsna m3ah shwy

d5lt 3lay mama muna: 7bayby, dam inkm b5air al7een w hdaito, shraykm troo7oon elmdrsa?  

zaid faked a cough

zaid: la mama muna shoofy ana lsa t3ban

mama: 3yar! -she laughed- bnat 8omoo 7bayby yellah

both: inshallah

we both had 15 minutes to get ready 3shan elmdrsa shwy b3eeda+ z7mat el5br, mara bnt25r.

elmhm, w8t ma 8mna it was probably 8, 5l9na at 8.20

shit mara t25rna

elzbda, a54t elpoem 78y m3ay (elly 5baita 8bl ma td5l jdty), w rkbna elsyara

w 6b3n t3rfoon 8rwsht kl youm, eljzma lsa ma lbsnaha :p

elmhm, w9lna elmdrsa

shit! nsait rbbb6tyy

 Sh3ry wavy w na3m bs ma a7b anzla

w ana da5la w83t 3shan t5rt, w rk’9t sree3 mara w ma la7’6t 3la nfsy

9dmt bwa7d w 8lt sorry w ana ark’9 w atw83 shkly kan y5r3, w d5lt el9f

jlst b desk b3eed 3n elkl w sr7t

L8ait rb6q bshn6ty w rb6t sh3ry

bn9 elshr7, t4krt el poem 78y w mdait ydy lshn6ty 3shan a6l3ha

wla ma ala8eeha

wj3 wj3 wain ra7ttt

yarb ma nsaita blbait 5ayfa a7ad yshoofa w yt2thr.

d5l wa7d el9f w shkla jdeed awl mara ashoofa

awl ma d5l, ist24nt mn elusta4 inna a6l3 ashoof lw 6y7ta bl enterance 

sm7 ly, w youm 6l3t ma l8aita

w ana adwr, fkrt w istslmt w bs 8lt inshallah inna blsyara ala8eeh.

rj3t el9f, w it ws recess time already, slmt 3la a couple of my old “friends” w r7t 3nd f9l rana 3shan njls m3 b3’9.

jlsna 3nd elschool bench w tklmna shwy

fj2a yjy wa7d 6weel mra w 6y7 8hwta 3lay.

just my luck

9ra7a y3ny

the guy was with a friend

the guy: oh asf, ma intbht lk.

“8damk 6ol b3’r9 w ma intbht ly? t7taj n’9arat y3ny?!”

elwld: ya5y bla mbzra, t2sft w I offered tissue’s, wshh aswy lk al7een y3ny?!

the friend: hey int w iyaha chill 5la9

the friend isnt new, he looks familiar

yasser?

the shy kid who alwys gets bullied?

5zaithm w msho

jt rana w a36tny tisssues mblbla

n’6ft elbn6loon w kmlt akly

rana: the friend mo kan m3ak mn 8bl? yasser ow yazan?

“yasser”

rana: w elly m3ah jded, 97?

“shdrany 3nhm rana, w3 w87een”

rana: mara

5l9 el recess w rana went back to her class and sat w her friends

rana is in her senior year, she is very social and has many friends mashallah, I on the other hand 7sait inna I lost kl 9dee8aty b3d wfat umy w u5ty, a7s inna ibt3dt 3n elkl w ma7d 9ar yst7ml nfsyty w my moody character.

lamya got awy from her friends and came to me

the teacher of calculas was absent, so we had a substitute, w 6b3n no one actually stays in calss when we have a free period, so s7btny m3aha w 6l3na

lamya: noura mara I missed youu!

“7beebty ana akthr”

lamya:kaifk inty w rana?

“al7amdellah”

lamya: ism3y ana w elbanat elyoum bnjtm3 b3d elmdrsa fy m63m * tjeen?

“la wallah ma atw83 a8dr sorryy”

lamya: 6yb next thursday tjeen baity?”

“no ma atw83 a8dr, 8lt lk jm3at ma aby aroo7”

lamya: 9ra7a noura inty mn wafat umk 7saitk mara ibt3dty 3na, w you built this unbreakable wall and isolated yourself mn kl a7ad! your social life ray7a feeha, y3ny ok allah yr7mhm bs thewy wouldnt have wanted you to be anti-social tmamn, and hateful towards youreslf, w kl a7ad 7olk! t3bt w ana a7awl ahdm elwall 78k elly bnaityh jwatk mn youm wfathm allah yr7mhm, I hope you’ll be able to find someone who does that.

and she left

my only childhood friend left

w8ft bmkany mtfaj2a, w m9dooma

w bdait a9ee7

r7t ll7mam bsr3a 3shan at2kd m7d yshoofny

w on my way I saw the new guy

sm3ta ygool: tbeen ams7 lk dmoo3k?

*in sarcasim*

6al3 3yoony w shft wjha 8lb w it showed regret shwy youm shaf inna 9d8 mdm3a shwy

5zaita w mshait ll7mam

w ms7t dmoo3y

Tmnait inna rania w mama 3ndy, kan s3adony bhlmw’9oo3

elmhm

d5lt el9f w l8ait the new guy jals y6al3ny

5zaita mn a3ma8 8lby w jlst bdesk b3eed 3n ay a7ad a3rfa

sm3t wldain ytklmoon, m3ay bl9f, wa7d isma nayif w elthany ibrahim.

ibrahim: shft el new guy?

nayif: s3ood?

so his name is s3ood?

ibrahim: ee, k2ny mshbh 3laih, ….

kml salfta w ma rkzt m3ahm

ft7t my laptop w jlst a8ra blog maha w the period finally 5l9t.

6l3t mn el9f w r7t 3nd elmshrf 3shan aa54 my locker number,

a54ta w r7t 3nd rana a8oolha bst24n, since I already took my books w mafy anything interesting

8alt she will stay. al7amdellah im noticing inna she is so much happier and positive.

klmt mama muna w 8alt mafy swa8, so zaid byjeeny, I saw faisal in his class, and I asked his teacher lw a8dr aklmh

he came out

faisal: fy shay?

“brj3 elbait, tjy m3ay?”

faisal: la

“6yb bye”

mshait w I waited for zaid to come pick me up

kan 10 am ymkn

after 5 minutes he arrived w rkbt m3ah.

seriously 6fsht mn kl a7ad w kl shay w lsa twna awl youm blsna, kaif bst7ml 7 mdry 8 months m3 hlwjooh el5aysa.

zaid: ism3y tbeen nf6r bara?

“okk”

zaid: 6yb aish tbeen?

“ay mkan”

zaid: kaif awl youm?

“shit”

zaid: fuck laish?

“fy wld 6y7 3lay 8hwa w salfa”

zaid: 6yb hlwld a3ma ma yshoof?

“mdry 3na bs inna he is new w mstfz mra, bs inna ma ankr jmeel bs shwy y3ny :p”

zaid: y3 ya m8rfa mnjdk

“ya 7mar 8lt shwy a9lan a5la8a knsl el 1% min eljmal 78a”

zaid: laish wsh swa?

“6y7 3lay el8hwa :(“

zaid: 6yb, ma y9y7, t2sf b3dain akeed 97? w jab lk tissues?

“ee”

zaid: 6yb ajl laish m39ba?

“3shan kreeh! 5la9 zaid 8fl elmw’9oo3”

zaid: 5la9 sorry. 9ar shay jdeed m3 9dee8tk lamya?

“in6m shwy aby anam”

5loony aw9flkm nfsy shwy

im very short, about 150 cm tall, and im very thin and fit and have very long and light brown hair, and its naturally curly. I was never a very social person, nor anti social, I had 4 friends and I was happy with them. until my mom died

3ndy 2 siblings, faisal and rana, w I had rania allah yr7mha

and I have 3 very close cousins, elba8y ma b3rfhm

1- zaid: 6b3n my favorite cousin

2- turki: the funniest and sweet

3- shahla: she is my age, bs not the same school w mara l6eefa w my best friend after rana.

rana: she is very tall, maybe 170? and she has medium lengthed dark brown hair, that is straight.

turki ma a3rf kaif aw9fa 9ra7a :) he looks exactly like zaid but sharper features 

zaid isnt very tall, ymkn 175, w he has brown curly hair, w very nice face features.

…..

back to the story;

zaid: mo mnjdk btnameenn!

“la bs elain ma no9l maly 5l8”

zaid: 6yb ism3y, klmy mama muna, 5leena nrj3 elbait w bs, ma a7s fy da3y m63m lw tbeen tnameen.

“la la 3ady, h4any 8ayma, int sh3ndk swaleef 6yb ma 3ndy salfa”

zaid: t5yly ams wsh 9ar?

“aish”

zaid: mdry ma 3ndy salfa

“zaid t8hr”

zaid: 6yb 8ooly ly, wsh ism hlwld?

“s3ood”

zaid: al?

“mdry, ana blyallah 8drt a3rf isma al awl kaif b3rf elthany?”

zaid: mo inty m3ah blclasses? ma sm3ty isma youm ynadoon elista4a ow elista4?

“ la awl 79a ma sm3t isma 3shan 6l3t awal ma d5l w b3dain break b3dain 79a fra’3 fa ma sm3t isma”.

zaid: 6yb ism3y, sh3ndk youm el5mees?

“wla shay, as usual”

zaid; b5a6ry b7rain

“6yb ok, nroo7, bs2l baba elyoum lw n8dr n’nam hnak”

zaid: ok.

w9lna elm63m w aklna

b3d elakl 8rrna inna nrj3 elbait 

awl ma w9lt elbait nmna.

Nmt b3fny w elmryool w sh3r ksha mra

8mt elsa3a 1 ymkn

6l3t el9ala, ella sm3t 3many w 3maty yklmoon baba

3mty fayza: ism3 sultan -baba- ma tfkr blzwaj abadn?

baba: la 6b3n, w asma mst7eel atzwj 3laiha, swa2n kant 3aysha ow mtwfya, w3dtha w ma b5lf elw3d b3d t8reeban 20 sna 7b

3my: 6yb elrjal y7taj wa7da t36yh ihtimam, t3bra, t6b5 lh, int ma 3ndk. ma tft8d hlshay?

baba: ella,bs ana 3ndy ha4a elshay 

3ma: wsho mtzwj wrana y3ny :)

Baba; la 3ndy rana w noura 

Hna bdait adm3

3mty: a9lan fy w7da tw 8bl youmain da8a 3ly t8ool indlt 3la w7da mra tnasbk!

baba hna bda y39b

6ary elzwaj ha4y ma y7bha

baba: ya anfal! ma tfhmoon klkm? ma aby atzwj! ma b7b ella asma allah yr7mha. lw bt’39boony 3la w7da b’6lmha m3y. w ana mo bzr, rjal 6ol b3r’9 m’39oob?!!! - w ho y9ar5-

klhm ist7o 3la wjeehm w 6al3o elar’9. baba akbrhm

mara y3jbny i9rar baba w mda 7bh lmama ldrjt inna 7ta b3d elwfa ma by7b ‘3airha

shft baba y8oom w yb’3a y6l3 mn el9ala. 6l3 w ra7 ‘3rfth

l78ta hnak w d8ait elbab

baba: tf’9l.

d5lt

“ya hla ba’3la abo!”

7’9nta w bst rasa

Baba: hala wallah kaifk Noura?

“Al7mdellah, baba 3ady aroo7 elb7rain m3 Rana w zaid w shahla w Faisal?”

Baba: ee 6b3n, mta btroo7oon?

“5mees, w i7timal inna n’nam hnak”

Baba: 6yb, kaif awl youm mdrsa?

“Zain”

Baba: 5la9 A5r sna lk elly lazm tshdeen 7ailk feeh, b3dain senior year fleeha. Bs ya welk ashoof B’s blreport card

“Wsho “fleeha” Bl3ks senior year elly lazm ashd 7aily 3shan ad5l jam3at Zaina w k4a”

Baba ‘97k; 6yb :)))

I smiled at him w R7t a’3yr mlabsy

Lbst my jeans and a black shirt

Zaid ee’9 w ll7een naym fa ma aby a8wma, w mafy a7ad fy elbait w 6fsh. 

Turki w Rana blmdrsa, 7ta Faisal 

Fa 8lt aroo7 ashoof Jdty um umy allah yr7mha, al7een kl elcoisons el ufo a7bhm mwjoodeen

8lt l baba inna broo7, bs he couldn’t come 3shan he has to go back llshrka

Klmt elswa8 w 8lt lh yjhz elsyara

I put on some concealer under my eyes, lip balm, and spritzed some perfume w 6l3t.

“3ly Allah y3afeek roo7 * 78 el7la”

3ly: inshallah

R7t mkan 7la 8reeb mn baity 3shan aa54 lhm shay, bhl W8t kl elcousins elly a7bhm rj3o mn elmdrsa ow el jam3a, w 6b3n jdty w jdy blbait w a5waly w 5alaty

A54t el sweets w mrait bohemia a54 lhm 8hwa w r7t lbait jdty

Awl ma W9lt D8ait elbab w D5lt 

R7t eldeewanya, w l8aithm klhm mtjm3een yl3boon fifa 

Bs l8ait sara w m7mad and nawaf 

“Ahlan Ahlannn”

Sara: yaaa hla wallah 

Mohammed: tw ma nwrr!

“Mnwr bahl elbaitt”

Nawaf: ya Allah Ana jals ahlws wla ha4y el7mara elly bs ts7b 8damy?

“Kl z8”

Nawaf: Ana asf asf bs 9d8 bs ts7been!

“5la9 la t5af 8a3da 3la 8loobkm Elian ma yjoony Faisal w Turki w Elb8ya mn elmdrsa”

Sara: 7yakk, w b3dain T3aly shrayk t’t’34oon 3ndnaa, tkfainn

“Bshoof m3 baba”

Sara: 3my sultan!! Laish ma ja mnzman 3na!

“Shrka kl 3ada” -_-

Sara: allah y3eena, bs wallah t’34o 3ndna 3shan elbait fa’9y mara bs fy jdty w jdy w elb8ya klhm blbait naymeen ow bl sh’3l

“97 3la el6ary! Broo7 aslm 3laiha”

M7md: w3 dloo3at eljda inttyy 

“Kl z88”

M7md: ma baklkkk 

“W3 7rkat 2019 4y ma nbeeha” -_-

Sara: 8oomy slmy bs, b3dain t3ay wsh hl mfr7at el7lwaa, blooztk 7lwa b3d bsr8ha

“7lallk”

6l3t man 3ndhm w R7t 3nd jdty w jdy fou8

Jdty: ya halaaa w ‘3laa b nonatnaa

“Hala feek ya a’3la mama Nona!!”

7baitha hy w jdy w jlst jnb mama Noura

Jdy: Aish ela5baar? Laish Sa7ba 3laina? 

“Afaa! Tw 8bl usboo3 jetkm!”

Jdy: isboo3 fy 3aink! 9arlk sh’hr!

6al3t jdty w she nodded 

Shit wallah m89ra m3ahm

“78km 3lay, b9eer ajeekm weekly”

Mama Noura; wain i5tk?

“Mdrsa, Ana rj3t bdry elyoum, 6fsht w ma kan fy shay nsweh”

Jdty: allah yhdeek, ma tdreen ymkn fy ashya2 mhma. 

“mama nora wallah a54t ktby w locker”

Jdty: 6yb 7beebty, tbeen tt’34een al7een?

“La a9lan Turki w b8yat elcousins byjoon ymroony w bnt’34a m3 b3’9”

Ana a7b bait jdty w jay w I love my relatives bs a7s ma a8dr ails bhlbait lw8t 6weel ashta8 la mama.

Jdty: 7yahm

rj3t l nawaf w m7md w sara 

Jlst 3ndhm w 8lt lhm yjoon m3ana b7rain if they want 

Waf8o w rtbna elumoor inna thursday nst24n w nroo7.

Jw my cousins w a5wany w aklna w rj3na elbait.

On my way out I did notice a weird car parked outside.

• next day - 

I got put of bed, jlst 3nd my window shwya w 9lait w b3dain nzlt 3nd zain ashoof lw byjy m3ana or not

He is in the same grade as me, w mara isht8t l jlsatna blfs7a 

Turns out he is coming al7amdellah fa nznlna together 

L8aina mama muna tswy f6oor lna 

Mama: 9ba7o ya 7lween 

“9ba7 elnoor ya Noor elbait”

Zaid: Noura mrw8a mama muna lazm nst’3lha elyoum 

“Kl z8”

Jdty; alfa’6k! 

“Sorry :((“

Zaid: yellah noni Ana blsyara ant’9rk

He left w I wore my jacket, tied my hair w 6l3t man elbait.

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Kaiffff? Inshallah 3jbkm??

Inshallah I’ll be posting chapter 2 really soon! 

Bs a36oony feedback please❤️ 

3jbkm el6ool wla a89ra?

Love u all